ing for a long time； every muscle in his face quivered as if under torture； his limbs shook； his eyes； his voice； uttered such misery as only the vilest criminal should be made to suffer。 And it was because he had lost sixpence！
I could have shed tears with him……tears of pity and of rage at all this spectacle implied。 On a day of indescribable glory； when earth and heaven shed benedictions upon the soul of man； a child； whose nature would have bidden him rejoice as only childhood may； wept his heart out because his hand had dropped a sixpenny piece！ The loss was a very serious one； and he knew it； he was less afraid to face his parents； than overe by misery at the thought of the harm he had done them。 Sixpence dropped by the wayside； and a whole family made wretched！ What are the due descriptive terms for a state of 〃civilization〃 in which such a thing as this is possible？
I put my hand into my pocket； and wrought sixpennyworth of miracle。
It took me half an hour to recover my quiet mind。 After all； it is as idle to rage against man's fatuity as to hope that he will ever be less a fool。 For me； the great thing was my sixpenny miracle。 Why； I have known the day when it would have been beyond my power altogether； or else would have cost me a meal。 Wherefore； let me again be glad and thankful。
IV
There was a time in my life when； if I had suddenly been set in the position I now enjoy； conscience would have lain in ambush for me。 What！ An ine sufficient to support three or four working…class families……a house all to myself……things beautiful wherever I turn…… and absolutely nothing to do for it all！ I should have been hard put to it to defend myself。 In those days I was feelingly reminded； hour by hour； with what a struggle the obscure multitudes manage to keep alive。 Nobody kno parvo liceat producere vitam。 I have hungered in the streets； I have laid my head in the poorest shelter； I know what it is to feel the heart burn with wrath and envy of 〃the privileged classes。〃 Yes； but all that time I was one of 〃the privileged〃 myself； and now I can accept a recognized standing among them without shadow of self…reproach。
It does not mean that my larger sympathies are blunted。 By going to certain places； looking upon certain scenes； I could most effectually destroy all the calm that life has brought me。 If I hold apart and purposely refuse to look that way； it is because I believe that the world is better； not worse； for having one more inhabitant who lives as bees a civilized being。 Let him whose soul prompts him to assail the iniquity of things； cry and spare not； let him who has the vocation go forth and bat。 In me it would be to err from Nature's guidance。 I know； if I know anything； that I am made for the life of tranquillity and meditation。 I know that only thus can such virtue as I possess find scope。 More than half a century of existence has taught me that most of the wrong and folly which darken earth is due to those who cannot possess their souls in quiet； that most of the good which saves mankind from destruction es of life that is led in thoughtful stillness。 Every day the world grows noisier； I； for one； will have no part in that increasing clamour； and； were it only by my silence； I confer a boon on all。
How well would the revenues of a country be expended； if； by mere pensioning； one…fifth of its population could be induced to live as I do！
V
〃Sir；〃 said Johnson； 〃all the arguments which are brought to represent poverty as no evil； show it to be evidently a great evil。 You never find people labouring to convince you that you may live very happily upon a plentiful fortune。〃
He knew what he was talking of； that rugged old master of mon sense。 Poverty is of course a relative thing； the term has reference； above all； to one's standing as an intellectual being。 If I am to believe the newspapers； there are title…bearing men and women in England who； had they an assured ine of five…and…twenty； shillings per week； would have no right to call themselves poor； for their intellectual needs are those of a stable…boy or scullery wench。 Give me the same ine and I can live； but I am poor indeed。
You tell me that money cannot buy the things most precious。 Your monplace proves that you have never known the lack of it。 When I think of all the sorrow and the barrenness that has been wrought in my life by want of a few more pounds per annum than I was able to earn； I stand aghast at money's significance。 What kindly joys have I lost； those simple forms of happiness to which every heart has claim； because of poverty！ Meetings with those I loved made impossible year after year； sadness； misunderstanding； nay； cruel alienation； arising from inability to do the things I wished； and which I might have done had a little money helped me； endless instances of homely pleasure and contentment curtailed or forbidden by narrow means。 I have lost friends merely through the constraints of my position； friends I might have made have remained strangers to me； solitude of the bitter kind； the solitude which is enforced at times when mind or heart longs for panionship； often cursed my life solely because I was poor。 I think it would scarce be an exaggeration to say that there is no moral good which has not to be paid for in coin of the realm。
〃Poverty；〃 said Johnson again； 〃is so great an evil； and pregnant with so much temptation； so much misery； that I cannot but earnestly enjoin you to avoid it。〃
For my own part； I needed no injunction to that effort of avoidance。 Many a London garret knows how I struggled with the unwele chamber…fellow。 I marvel she did not abide with me to the end； it is a sort of inconsequence in Nature； and sometimes makes me vaguely uneasy through nights of broken sleep。
VI
How many more springs can I hope to see？ A sanguine temper would say ten or twelve； let me dare to hope humbly for five or six。 That is a great many。 Five or six spring…times； weled joyously； lovingly watched from the first celandine to the budding of the rose； who shall dare to call it a stinted boon？ Five or six times the miracle of earth reclad； the vision of splendour and loveliness which tongue has never yet described； set before my gazing。 To think of it is to fear that I ask too much。
VII
〃Homo animal querulum cupide suis incumbens miseriis。〃 I wonder where that es from。 I found it once in Charron； quoted without reference； and it has often been in my mind……a dreary truth； well worded。 At least； it was a truth for me during many a long year。 Life； I fancy； would very often be insupportable； but for the luxury of self…passion； in cases numberless； this it must be that saves from suicide。 For some there is great relief in talking about their miseries； but such gossips lack the profound solace of misery nursed in silent brooding。 Happily； the trick with me has never been retrospective； indeed； it was never； even with regard to instant suffering； a habit so deeply rooted as to bee a mastering vice。 I knew my own weakness when I yielded to it； I despised myself when it brought me fort； I could laugh scornfully； even 〃cupide meis incumbens miseriis。〃 And now； thanks be to the unknown power which rules us； my past has buried its dead。 More than that； I can accept with sober cheerfulness the necessity of all I lived through。 So it was to be； so it was。 For this did Nature shape me； with what purpose； I shall never know； but； in the sequence of things eternal； this was my place。
Could I have achieved so much philosophy if； as I ever feared； the closing years of my life had passed in helpless indigence？ Should I not have sunk into lowest depths of querulous self…pity； grovelling there with eyes obstinately averted from the light above？
VIII
The early ing of spring in this happy Devon gladdens my heart。 I think with chill disfort of those parts of England where the primrose shivers beneath a sky of threat rather than of solace。 Honest winter； snow…clad and with the frosted beard； I can wele not uncordially； but that long deferment of the calendar's promise； that weeping gloom of March and April； that bitter blast outraging the honour of May……how often has it robbed me of heart and hope。 Here； scarce have I assured myself that the last leaf has fallen； scarce have I watched the glistening of hoar…frost upon the evergreens； when a breath from the west thrills me with anticipation of bud and bloom。 Even under this grey…billowing sky； which tells that February is still in rule：…
Mild winds shake the elder brake； And the wandering herdsmen know That the whitethorn soon will blow。
I have been thinking of those early years of mine in London； when the seasons passed over me unobserved； when I seldom turned a glance towards the heavens； and felt no hardship in the imprisonment of boundless streets。 It is strange now to remember that for some six or seven years I never looked upon a meadow； never travelled even so far as to the tree…bordered suburbs。 I was battling for dear life； on most days I could not feel certain that in a week's time I should have food and shelter。 It would happen； to be sure； that in hot noons of August my thoughts wandered to the sea； but so impossible was the gratification of such desire that it never greatly troubled me。 At times； indeed； I see