away。 That’s everything。
I frowned at the letters on the page。 All of them had been in on it — Emmett； Jasper； Alice； Rosalie； and
Carlisle。 Maybe even Esme； though he hadn’t mentioned her。 And then Paul and the rest of the Quileute pack。
It might so easily have turned into a fight； pitting my future family and my old friends against each other。 Any
one of them could have been hurt。 I imagined the wolves would be in the most danger； but picturing tiny Alice
next to one of the huge werewolves； fighting 。 。 。
I shuddered。
Carefully； I scrubbed out the entire paragraph with my eraser and then I wrote over the top：
What about Charlie？ She could have been after him。
Edward was shaking his head before I finished； obviously going to downplay any danger on Charlie’s
behalf。 He held a hand out； but I ignored that and started again。
You can’t know that she wasn’t thinking that； because you weren’t here。 Florida was a bad idea。
He took the paper from underneath my hand。
I wasn’t about to send you off alone。 With your luck； not even the black box would survive。
That wasn’t what I’d meant at all； I hadn’t thought of going without him。 I’d meant that we should have
stayed here together。 But I was sidetracked by his response； and a little miffed。 Like I couldn’t fly cross
country without bringing the plane down。 Very funny。
So let’s say my bad luck did crash the plane。 What exactly were you going to do about it？
Why is the plane crashing？
He was trying to hide a smile now。
The pilots are passed out drunk。
Easy。 I’d fly the plane。
Of course。 I pursed my lips and tried again。
Both engines have exploded and we’re falling in a death spiral toward the earth。
I’d wait till we were close enough to the ground； get a good grip on you； kick out the wall； and
jump。 Then I’d run you back to the scene of the accident； and we’d stumble around like the two
luckiest survivors in history。
I stared at him wordlessly。
“What？” he whispered。
I shook my head in awe。 “Nothing；” I mouthed。
I scrubbed out the disconcerting conversation and wrote one more line。
You will tell me next time。
I knew there would be a next time。 The pattern would continue until someone lost。
Edward stared into my eyes for a long moment。 I wondered what my face looked like — it felt cold； so
the blood hadn’t returned to my cheeks。 My eyelashes were still wet。
He sighed and then nodded once。
Thanks。
The paper disappeared from under my hand。 I looked up； blinkingin surprise； just as Mr。 Berty came
down the aisle。
“Is that something you’d like to share there； Mr。 Cullen？”
Edward looked up innocently and held out the sheet of paper on top of his folder。 “My notes？” he asked；
sounding confused。
Mr。 Berty scanned the notes — no doubt a perfect transcription of his lecture — and then walked away
frowning。
It was later； in Calculus — my one class without Edward — that I heard the gossip。
“My money’s on the big Indian；” someone was saying。
I peeked up to see that Tyler； Mike； Austin； and Ben had their heads bent together； deep in conversation。
“Yeah；” Mike whispered。 “Did you see the size of that Jacob kid？ I think he could take Cullen down。”
Mike sounded pleased by the idea。
“I don’t think so；” Ben disagreed。 “There’s something about Edward。 He’s always so 。 。 。 confident。 I
have a feeling he can take care of himself。”
“I’m with Ben；” Tyler agreed。 “Besides； if that other kid messed Edward up； you know those big brothers
of his would get involved。”
“Have you been down to La Push lately？” Mike asked。 “Lauren and I went to the beach a couple of
weeks ago； and believe me； Jacob’s friends are all just as big as he is。”
“Huh；” Tyler said。 “Too bad it didn’t turn into anything。 Guess we’ll never know how it would have turned
out。”
“It didn’t look over to me；” Austin said。 “Maybe we’ll get to see。”
Mike grinned。 “Anyone in the mood for a bet？”
“Ten on Jacob；” Austin said at once。
“Ten on Cullen；” Tyler chimed in。
“Ten on Edward；” Ben agreed。
“Jacob；” Mike said。
“Hey； do you guys know what it was about？” Austin wondered。 “That might affect the odds。”
“I can guess；” Mike said； and then he shot a glance at me at the same time that Ben and Tyler did。
From their expressions； none of them had realized I was in easy hearing distance。 They all looked away
quickly； shuffling the papers on their desks。
“I still say Jacob；” Mike muttered under his breath。
4。 NATURE
I WAS HAVING A BAD WEEK。
I knew that essentially nothing had changed。 Okay； so Victoria had not given up； but had I ever dreamed
for one moment that she had？ Her reappearance had only confirmed what I’d already known。 No reason for
fresh panic。
In theory。 Not panicking was easier said than done。
Graduation was only a few weeks away； but I wondered if it wasn’t a little foolish to sit around； weak and
tasty； waiting for the next disaster。 It seemed too dangerous to be human — just begging for trouble。 Someone
like me shouldn’t be human。 Someone with my luck ought to be a little less helpless。
But no one would listen to me。
Carlisle had said； “There are seven of us； Bella。 And with Alice on our side； I don’t think Victoria’s going
to catch us off guard。 I think it’s important； for Charlie’s sake； that we stick with the original plan。”
Esme had said； “We’d never allow anything to happen to you； sweetheart。 You know that。 Please don’t
be anxious。” And then she’d kissed my forehead。
Emmett had said； “I’m really glad Edward didn’t kill you。 Everything’s so much more fun with you
around。”
Rosalie had glared at him。
Alice had rolled her eyes and said； “I’m offended。 You’re not honestly worried about this； are you？”
“If it’s no big deal； then why did Edward drag me to Florida？” I’d demanded。
“Haven’t you noticed yet； Bella； that Edward is just the teeniest bit prone to overreaction？”
Jasper had silently erased all the panic and tension in my body with his curious talent of controlling
emotional atmospheres。 I’d felt reassured； and let them talk me out of my desperate pleading。
Of course； that calm had worn off as soon as Edward and I had walked out of the room。
So the consensus was that I was just supposed to forget that a deranged vampire was stalking me； intent
on my death。 Go about my business。
I did try。 And surprisingly； there were other things almost as stressful to dwell on besides my status on the
endangered species list。 。 。 。
Because Edward’s response had been the most frustrating of them all。
“That’s between you and Carlisle；” he’d said。 “Of course； you know that I’m willing to make it between
you and me at any time that you wish。 You know my condition。” And he had smiled angelically。
Ugh。 I did know his condition。 Edward had promised that he would change me himself whenever I wanted
。 。 。 just as long as I was married to him first。
Sometimes I wondered if he was only pretending that he couldn’t read my mind。 How else had he struck
upon the one condition that I would have trouble accepting？ The one condition that would slow me down。
All in all； a very bad week。 And today was the worst day in it。
It was always a bad day when Edward was away。 Alice had foreseen nothing out of the ordinary this
weekend； and so I’d insisted that he take the opportunity to go hunting with his brothers。 I knew how it bored
him to hunt the easy； nearby prey。
“Go have fun；” I’d told him。 “Bag a few mountain lions for me。”
I would never admit to him how hard it was for me when he was gone — how it brought back the
abandonment nightmares。 If he knew that； it would make him feel horrible and he would be afraid to ever
leave me； even for the most necessary reasons。 It had been like that in the beginning； when he’d first returned
from Italy。 His golden eyes had turned black and he’d suffered from his thirst more than it was already
necessary that he suffer。 So I put on a brave face and all but kicked him out the door whenever Emmett and
Jasper wanted to go。
I think he saw through me； though。 A little。 This morning there had been a note left on my pillow：
I’ll be back so soon you won’t have time to miss me。 Look after my heart — I’ve left it with you。
So now I had a big empty Saturday with nothing but my morning shift at Newton’s Olympic Outfitters to
distract me。 And； of course； the ohsoforting promise from Alice。
“I’m staying close to home to hunt。 I’ll only be fifteen minutes away if you need me。 I’ll keep an eye out
for trouble。”
Translation： don’t try anything funny just because Edward is gone。
Alice was certainly just as capable of crippling my truck as Edward was。
I tried to look on the bright side。 After work； I had plans to help Angela with her announcements； so that
would be a distraction。 And Charlie was in an excellent mood due to Edward’s absence； so I might as well
enjoy that while it lasted。 Alice would spend the night with m