town would watch me walk down the aisle on my father¨s arm and think I was the most beautiful thing they¨d
ever seen。 Admiration was like air to me�察�Bella。 I was silly and shallow�察�but I was content。 ̄ She smiled�察�
amused at her own evaluation。
^My parents¨ influence had been such that I also wanted the material things of life。 I wanted a big house
with elegant furnishings that someone else would clean and a modern kitchen that someone else would cook
in。 As I said�察�shallow。 Young and very shallow。 And I didn¨t see any reason why I wouldn¨t get these things。
^There were a few things I wanted that were more meaningful。 One thing in particular。 My very closest
friend was a girl named Vera。 She married young�察�just seventeen。 She married a man my parents would never
have considered for me ! a carpenter。 A year later she had a son�察�a beautiful little boy with dimples and curly
black hair。 It was the first time I¨d ever felt truly jealous of anyone else in my entire life。 ̄
She looked at me with unfathomable eyes。 ^It was a different time。 I was the same age as you�察�but I was
ready for it all。 I yearned for my own little baby。 I wanted my own house and a husband who would kiss me
when he got home from work ! just like Vera。 Only I had a very different kind of house in mind。 。 。 。 ̄
It was hard for me to imagine the world that Rosalie had known。 Her story sounded more like a fairy tale
than history to me。 With a slight shock�察�I realized that this was very close to the world that Edward would
have experienced when he was human�察�the world he had grown up in。 I wondered ! while Rosalie sat silent
for a moment ! if my world seemed as baffling to him as Rosalie¨s did to me�拭�
Rosalie sighed�察�and when she spoke again her voice was different�察�the wistfulness gone。
^In Rochester�察�there was one royal family ! the Kings�察�ironically enough。 Royce King owned the bank
my father worked at�察�and nearly every other really profitable business in town。 That¨s how his son�察�Royce
King the Second ̄ ! her mouth twisted around the name�察�it came out through her teeth ! ^saw me the first
time。 He was going to take over at the bank�察�and so he began overseeing the different positions。 Two days
later�察�my mother conveniently forgot to send my father¨s lunch to work with him。 I remember being confused
when she insisted that I wear my white organza and roll my hair up just to run over to the bank。 ̄ Rosalie
laughed without humor。
^I didn¨t notice Royce watching me particularly。 Everyone watched me。 But that night the first of the roses
came。 Every night of our courtship�察�he sent a bouquet of roses to me。 My room was always overflowing with
them。 It got to the point that I would smell like roses when I left the house。
^Royce was handsome�察�too。 He had lighter hair than I did�察�and pale blue eyes。 He said my eyes were like
violets�察�and then those started showing up alongside the roses。
^My parents approved ! that¨s putting it mildly。 This was everything they¨d dreamed of。 And Royce
seemed to be everything I¨d dreamed of。 The fairy tale prince�察�e to make me a princess。 Everything I
wanted�察�yet it was still no more than I expected。 We were engaged before I¨d known him for two months。
^We didn¨t spend a great deal of time alone with each other。 Royce told me he had many responsibilities
at work�察�and�察�when we were together�察�he liked people to look at us�察�to see me on his arm。 I liked that�察�too。
There were lots of parties�察�dancing�察�and pretty dresses。 When you were a King�察�every door was open for you�察�
every red carpet rolled out to greet you。
^It wasn¨t a long engagement。 Plans went ahead for the most lavish wedding。 It was going to be everything
I¨d ever wanted。 I was pletely happy。 When I called at Vera¨s�察�I no longer felt jealous。 I pictured my fair
haired children playing on the huge lawns of the Kings¨ estate�察�and I pitied her。 ̄
Rosalie broke off suddenly�察�clenching her teeth together。 It pulled me out of her story�察�and I realized that
the horror was not far off。 There would be no happy ending�察�as she¨d promised。 I wondered if this was why
she had so much more bitterness in her than the rest of them ! because she¨d been within reach of everything
she¨d wanted when her human life was cut short。
^I was at Vera¨s that night�察院�Rosalie whispered。 Her face was smooth as marble�察�and as hard。 ^Her little
Henry really was adorable�察�all smiles and dimples ! he was just sitting up on his own。 Vera walked me to the
door as I was leaving�察�her baby in her arms and her husband at her side�察�his arm around her waist。 He kissed
her on the cheek when he thought I wasn¨t looking。 That bothered me。 When Royce kissed me�察�it wasn¨t quite
the same ! not so sweet somehow。 。 。 。 I shoved that thought aside。 Royce was my prince。 Someday�察�I
would be queen。 ̄
It was hard to tell in the moonlight�察�but it looked like her bone white face got paler。
^It was dark in the streets�察�the lamps already on。 I hadn¨t realized how late it was。 ̄ She continued to
whisper almost inaudibly。 ^It was cold�察�too。 Very cold for late April。 The wedding was only a week away�察�and
I was worrying about the weather as I hurried home ! I can remember that clearly。 I remember every detail
about that night。 I clung to it so hard 。 。 。 in the beginning。 I thought of nothing else。 And so I remember this�察�
when so many pleasant memories have faded away pletely。 。 。 。 ̄
She sighed�察�and began whispering again。 ^Yes�察�I was worrying about the weather。 。 。 。 I didn¨t want to
have to move the wedding indoors。 。 。 。
^I was a few streets from my house when I heard them。 A cluster of men under a broken streetlamp�察�
laughing too loud。 Drunk。 I wished I¨d called my father to escort me home�察�but the way was so short�察�it
seemed silly。 And then he called my name。
^`Rose� � he yelled�察�and the others laughed stupidly。
^I hadn¨t realized the drunks were so well dressed。 It was Royce and some of his friends�察�sons of other
rich men。
^`Here¨s my Rose� � Royce shouted�察�laughing with them�察�sounding just as stupid。 `You¨re late。 We¨re cold�察�
you¨ve kept us waiting so long。¨ ̄
^I¨d never seen him drink before。 A toast�察�now and then�察�at a party。 He¨d told me he didn¨t like
champagne。 I hadn¨t realized that he preferred something much stronger。
^He had a new friend ! the friend of a friend�察�e up from Atlanta。
^`What did I tell you�察�John�察� Royce crowed�察�grabbing my arm and pullingme closer。 `Isn¨t she lovelier
than all your Georgia peaches�拭�
^The man named John was darkhaired and suntanned。 He looked me over like I was a horse he was
buying。
^`It¨s hard to tell�察� he drawled slowly。 `She¨s all covered up。¨
^They laughed�察�Royce like the rest。
^Suddenly�察�Royce ripped my jacket from my shoulders ! it was a gift from him ! popping the brass
buttons off。 They scattered all over the street。
^`Show him what you look like�察�Rose� � He laughed again and then he tore my hat out of my hair。 The pins
wrenched my hair from the roots�察�and I cried out in pain。 They seemed to enjoy that ! the sound of my pain。
。 。 。 ̄
Rosalie looked at me suddenly�察�as if she¨d forgotten I was there。 I was sure my face was as white as hers。
Unless it was green。
^I won¨t make you listen to the rest�察院�she said quietly。 ^They left me in the street�察�still laughing as they
stumbled away。 They thought I was dead。 They were teasing Royce that he would have to find a new bride。
He laughed and said he¨d have to learn some patience first。
^I waited in the road to die。 It was cold�察�though there was so much pain that I was surprised it bothered
me。 It started to snow�察�and I wondered why I wasn¨t dying。 I was impatient for death to e�察�to end the
pain。 It was taking so long。 。 。 。
^Carlisle found me then。 He¨d smelled the blood�察�and e to investigate。 I remember being vaguely
irritated as he worked over me�察�trying to save my life。 I¨d never liked Dr。 Cullen or his wife and her brother !
as Edward pretended to be then。 It had upset me that they were all more beautiful than I was�察�especially that
the men were。 But they didn¨t mingle in society�察�so I¨d only seen them once or twice。
^I thought I¨d died when he pulled me from the ground and ran with me ! because of the speed ! it felt
like I was flying。 I remembered being horrified that the pain didn¨t stop。 。 。 。
^Then I was in a bright room�察�and it was warm。 I was slipping away�察�and I was grateful as the pain began
to dull。 But suddenly something sharp was cutting me�察�my throat�察�my wrists�察�my ankles。 I screamed in shock�察�
thinking he¨d brought me there to hurt me more。 Then fire started burning through me�察�and I didn¨t care about
anything else。 I begged him to kill me。 When Esme and Edward returned home�察�I begged them to kill me�察�too。
Carlisle sat with me。 He held my hand and said that he was so sorry�察�promising that it would end。 He told me
everything�察�and sometimes I listened。 He told me what he was�察�what I was being。 I didn¨t believe him。 He
apologized each time I screamed。
^Edward wasn¨t happy。 I remember hearing the