mutant spawn out of the deal。〃
〃Stop being a jerk； Jacob；〃 she whispered。
She looked too weak to get mad at。 I tried to smile instead。 〃You say that like it's possible。〃
Bella tried not to smile back for a second； but she couldn't help it in the end； her chalky lips pulled up at
the corners。
And then Carlisle and the psycho in question were there。 Carlisle had a white plastic cup in his hand
—the kind with a lid and a bendy straw。 Oh— not clear；now I got it。 Edward didn't want Bella to have
to think about what she was doing any more than necessary。 You couldn't see what was in the cup at all。
But I could smell it。
Carlisle hesitated； the hand with the cup halfextended。 Bella eyed it； looking scared again。
〃We could try another method；〃 Carlisle said quietly。
〃No；〃 Bella whispered。 〃No；111 try this first。 We don't have time。。。。〃
At first I thought she'd finally gotten a clue and was worried about herself； but then her hand fluttered
feebly against her stomach。
Bellareached out and took the cup from him。 Her hand shook a little； and I could hear the sloshing from
inside。 She tried to prop herself up on one elbow； but she could barely lift her head。 A whisper of heat
brushed down my spine as I saw how frail she'd gotten in less than a day。
Rosalie put her arm under Bella's shoulders； supporting her head； too； like you did with a newborn。
Blondie was all about the babies。
〃Thanks；〃 Bella whispered。 Her eyes flickered around at us。 Still aware enough to feel selfconscious。 If
she wasn't so drained； I'd bet she'd've blushed。
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〃Don't mind them；〃 Rosalie murmured。
It made me feel awkward。 I should've left when Bella'd offered the chance。 I didn't belong here； being
part of this。 I thought about ducking out； but then I realized a move like that would only make this worse
for Bella—make it harder for her to go through with it。 She'd figure I was too disgusted to stay。 Which
was almost true。
Still。 While I wasn't going to claim responsibility for this idea； I didn't want to jinx it； either。
Bella lifted the cup to her face and sniffed at the end of the straw。 She flinched； and then made a face。
〃Bella； sweetheart； we can find an easier way；〃 Edward said； holding his hand out for the cup。
〃Plug your nose；〃 Rosalie suggested。 She glared at Edward's hand like she might take a snap at it。 I
wished she would。 I bet Edward wouldn't take that sitting down； and I'd love to see Blondie lose a limb。
〃No； that's not it。 It's just that it—〃Bella sucked in a deep breath。 〃It smells good；〃 she admitted in a tiny
voice。
I swallowed hard； fighting to keep the disgust off my face。
〃That's a good thing；〃 Rosalie told Bella eagerly。 〃That means we're on the right track。 Give it a try。〃
Given Blondie's new expression； I was surprised she didn't break into a touchdown dance。
Bella shoved the straw between her lips； squeezed her eyes shut； and wrinkled her nose。 I could hear the
blood
slopping around in the cup again as her hand shook。 She sipped at it for a second； and then moaned
quietly with her eyes still closed。
Edward and I stepped forward at the same time。 He touched her face。 I clenched my hands behind my
back。
〃Bella； love—〃
Tm okay；〃 she whispered。 She opened her eyes and stared up at him。 Her expression was。。。 apologetic。
Pleading。 Scared。 〃It tastes good； too。〃
Acid churned in my stomach； threatening to overflow。 I ground my teeth together。
〃That's good；〃 Blondie repeated； still jazzed。 〃A good sign。〃
Edward just pressed his hand to her cheek； curling his fingers around the shape of her fragile bones。
Bella sighed and put her lips to the straw again。 She took a real pull this time。 The action wasn't as weak
as everything else about her。 Like some instinct was taking over。
〃How's your stomach？ Do you feel nauseated？〃 Carlisle asked。
Bella shook her head。 〃No； I don't feel sick；〃 she whispered。 〃There's a first； eh？〃
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Rosalie beamed。 〃Excellent。〃
〃I think it's a bit early for that； Rose；〃 Carlisle murmured。
Bella gulped another mouthful of blood。 Then she flashed a look at Edward。 〃Does this screw my total？〃
she whispered。 〃Or do we start counting after I'm a vampire？〃
〃No one is counting； Bella。 In any case； no one died for this。〃 He smiled a lifeless smile。 〃Your record is
still clean。〃
They'd lost me。
〃I'll explain later；〃 Edward said； so low the words were just a breath。
〃What？〃 Bella whispered。
〃Just talking to myself；〃 he lied smoothly。
If he succeeded with this； if Bella lived； Edward wasn't going to be able to get away with so much when
her senses were as sharp as his。 He'd have to work on the honesty thing。
Edward's lips twitched； fighting a smile。
Bella chugged a few more ounces； staring past us toward the window。 Probably pretending we weren't
here。 Or maybe just me。 No one else in this group would be disgusted by what she was doing。 Just the
opposite—they were probably having a tough time not ripping the cup away from her。
Edward rolled his eyes。
Jeez； how did anyone stand living with him？ It was really too bad he couldn't hear Bella's thoughts。 Then
he'd annoy the crap out of her； too； and she'd get tired of him。
Edward chuckled once。 Bella's eyes flicked to him immediately； and she halfsmiled at the humor in his
face。 I would guess that wasn't something she'd seen in a while。
〃Something funny？〃 she breathed。
〃Jacob；〃 he answered。
She looked over with another weary smile for me。 〃Jake's a crackup；〃 she agreed。
Great； now I was the court jester。 〃Bada bing〃 I mumbled in weak rimshot impression。
She smiled again； and then took another swig from the cup。 I flinched when the straw pulled at empty
air； making a loud sucking sound。
〃I did it；〃 she said； sounding pleased。 Her voice was clearer—rough； but not a whisper for the first time
today。 〃If I keep this down； Carlisle； will you take the needles out of me？〃
〃As soon as possible；〃 he promised。 〃Honestly； they aren't doing that much good where they are。〃
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Rosalie patted Bella's forehead； and they exchanged a hopeful glance。
And anyone could see it—the cup full of human blood had made an immediate difference。 Her color was
returning—there was a tiny hint of pink in her waxy cheeks。 Already she didn't seem to need Rosalie's
support so much anymore。 Her breathing was easier； and I would swear her heartbeat was stronger；
more even。
Everything accelerated。
That ghost of hope in Edward's eyes had turned into the real thing。
〃Would you like more？〃 Rosalie pressed。
Bella's shoulders slumped。
Edward flashed a glare at Rosalie before he spoke to Bella。 〃You don't have to drink more right away。〃
〃Yeah； I know。 But。。。 I want to〃 she admitted glumly。
Rosalie pulled her thin； sharp fingers through Bella's lank hair。 〃You don't need to be embarrassed about
that； Bella。 Your body has cravings。 We all understand that。〃 Her tone was soothing at first； but then she
added harshly； 〃Anyone who doesn't understand shouldn't be here。〃
Meant for me； obviously； but I wasn't going to let Blondie get to me。 I was glad Bella felt better。 So
what if the means grossed me out？ It wasn't like I'd said anything。
Carlisle took the cup from Bella's hand。 〃I'll be right back。〃
Bella stared at me while he disappeared。
〃Jake； you look awful；〃 she croaked。
〃Look who's talking。〃
〃Seriously—when's the last time you slept？〃
I thought about that for a second。 〃Huh。 I'm not actually sure。〃
〃Aw； Jake。 Now I'm messing with your health； too。 Don't be stupid。〃
I gritted my teeth。 She was allowed to kill herself for a monster； but I wasn't allowed to miss a few
nights' sleep to watch her do it？
〃Get some rest； please；〃 she went on。 〃There're a few beds upstairs—you're wele to any of them。〃
The look on Rosalie's face made it clear that I wasn't wele to one of them。 It made me wonder what
Sleepless Beauty needed a bed for anyway。 Was she that possessive of her props？
〃Thanks； Bells； but I'd rather sleep on the ground。 Away from the stench； you know。〃
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She grimaced。 〃Right。〃
Carlisle was back then； and Bella reached out for the blood； absentminded； like she was thinking of
something else。 With the same distracted expression； she started sucking it down。
She really was looking better。 She pulled herself forward； being careful of the tubes； and scooted into a
sitting position。 Rosalie hovered； her hands ready to catch Bella if she sagged。 But Bella didn't need her。
Taking deep breaths in between swallows； Bella finished the second cup quickly。
〃How do you feel now？〃 Carlisle asked。
〃Not sick。 Sort of hungry。。。 only I'm not sure if I'm hungry or thirsty； you know？〃
〃Carlisle； just look at her；