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I　heard　the　fabric　tearing　under　our　hands；　and　I　was　glad　my　clothes；　at　least；　were　already　destroyed。　
It　was　too　late　for　his。　It　felt　almost　rude　to　ignore　the　pretty　white　bed；　but　we　just　weren't　going　to　
make　it　that　far。　

This　second　honeymoon　wasn't　like　our　first。　

Our　time　on　the　island　had　been　the　epitome　of　my　human　life。　The　very　best　of　it。　I'd　been　so　ready　to　
string　along　my　human　time；　just　to　hold　on　to　what　I　had　with　him　for　a　little　while　longer。　Because　the　
physical　part　wasn't　going　to　be　the　same　ever　again。　

I　should　have　guessed；　after　a　day　like　today；　that　it　would　be　better。　

I　could　really　appreciate　him　now—could　properly　see　every　beautiful　line　of　his　perfect　face；　of　his　long；　
flawless　body　with　my　strong　new　eyes；　every　angle　and　every　plane　of　him。　I　could　taste　his　pure；　vivid　
scent　on　my　tongue　and　feel　the　unbelievable　silkiness　of　his　marble　skin　under　my　sensitive　fingertips。　

My　skin　was　so　sensitive　under　his　hands；　too。　

He　was　all　new；　a　different　person　as　our　bodies　tangled　gracefully　into　one　on　the　sandpale　floor。　No　
caution；　no　restraint。　No　fear—especially　not　that。　We　could　love　together—　both　active　participants　
now。　Finally　equals。　

Like　our　kisses　before；　every　touch　was　more　than　I　was　used　to。　So　much　of　himself　he'd　been　holding　
back。　Necessary　at　the　time；　but　I　couldn't　believe　how　much　I'd　been　missing。　

I　tried　to　keep　in　mind　that　I　was　stronger　than　he　was；　but　it　was　hard　to　focus　on　anything　with　
sensations　so　intense；　pulling　my　attention　to　a　million　different　places　in　my　body　every　second；　if　I　hurt　
him；　he　didn't　plain。　

A　very；　very　small　part　of　my　head　considered　the　interesting　conundrum　presented　in　this　situation。　I　
was　never　going　to　get　tired；　and　neither　was　he。　We　didn't　have　to　catch　our　breath　or　rest　or　eat　or　
even　use　the　bathroom；　we　had　no　more　mundane　human　needs。　He　had　the　most　beautiful；　perfect　body　
in　the　world　and　I　had　him　all　to　myself；　and　it　didn't　feel　like　I　was　ever　going　to　find　a　point　where　I　
would　think；　Now　I've　had　enough　for　one　day。　I　was　always　going　to　want　more。　And　the　day　was　
never　going　to　end。　So；　in　such　a　situation；　how　did　we　ever　stop？　

It　didn't　bother　me　at　all　that　I　had　no　answer。　



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I　sort　of　noticed　when　the　sky　began　to　lighten。　The　tiny　ocean　outside　turned　from　black　to　gray；　and　a　
lark　started　to　sing　somewhere　very　close　by—maybe　she　had　a　nest　in　the　roses。　

〃Do　you　miss　it？〃　I　asked　him　when　her　song　was　done。　

It　wasn't　the　first　time　we'd　spoken；　but　we　weren't　exactly　keeping　up　a　conversation；　either。　

〃Miss　what？〃　he　murmured。　

〃All　of　it—the　warmth；　the　soft　skin；　the　tasty　smell。。。　I'm　not　losing　anything　at　all；　and　I　just　wondered　if　
it　was　a　little　bit　sad　for　you　that　you　were。〃　

He　laughed；　low　and　gentle。　〃It　would　be　hard　to　find　someone　less　sad　than　I　am　now。　Impossible；　I'd　
venture。　Not　many　people　get　every　single　thing　they　want；　plus　all　the　things　they　didn't　think　to　ask　for；　
in　the　same　day。〃　

〃Are　you　avoiding　the　question？〃　

He　pressed　his　hand　against　my　face。　〃You　are　warm；〃　he　told　me。　

It　was　true；　in　a　sense。　To　me；　his　hand　was　warm。　It　wasn't　the　same　as　touching　Jacob's　flamehot　
skin；　but　it　was　more　fortable。　More　natural。　

Then　he　pulled　his　fingers　very　slowly　down　my　face；　lightly　tracing　from　my　jaw　to　my　throat　and　then　all　
the　way　down　to　my　waist。　My　eyes　rolled　back　into　my　head　a　little。　

〃You　are　soft。〃　

His　fingers　were　like　satin　against　my　skin；　so　I　could　see　what　he　meant。　

〃And　as　for　the　scent；　well；　I　couldn't　say　I　missed　that。　Do　you　remember　the　scent　of　those　hikers　on　
our　hunt？〃　

〃I've　been　trying　very　hard　not　to。〃　

〃Imagine　kissing　that。〃　

My　throat　ripped　into　flames　like　pulling　the　cord　on　a　hotair　balloon。　

〃07。〃　

〃Precisely。　So　the　answer　is　no。　I　am　purely　full　of　joy；　because　I　am　missing　nothing。　No　one　has　more　
than　I　do　now。〃　

I　was　about　to　inform　him　of　the　one　exception　to　his　statement；　but　my　lips　were　suddenly　very　busy。　

When　the　little　pool　turned　pearlcolored　with　the　sunrise；　I　thought　of　another　question　for　him。　

〃How　long　does　this　go　on？　I　mean；　Carlisle　and　Esme；　Em　and　Rose；　Alice　and　Jasper—they　don't　
spend　all　day　locked　in　their　rooms。　They're　out　in　public；　fully　clothed；　all　the　time。　Does　this。。。　craving　



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ever　let　up？〃　I　twisted　myself　closer　into　him—quite　an　acplishment；　actually—to　make　it　clear　what　I　
was　talking　about。　

〃That's　difficult　to　say。　Everyone　is　different　and；　well；　so　far　you're　the　very　most　different　of　all。　The　
average　young　vampire　is　too　obsessed　with　thirst　to　notice　much　else　for　a　while。　That　doesn't　seem　to　
apply　to　you。　With　the　average　vampire；　though；　after　that　first　year；　other　needs　make　themselves　
known。　Neither　thirst　nor　any　other　desire　really　ever　fades。　It's　simply　a　matter　of　learning　to　balance　
them；　learning　to　prioritize　and　manage___〃　

〃How　long？〃　

He　smiled；　wrinkling　his　nose　a　little。　〃Rosalie　and　Emmett　were　the　worst。　It　took　a　solid　decade　before　
I　could　stand　to　be　within　a　fivemile　radius　of　them。　Even　Carlisle　and　Esme　had　a　difficult　time　
stomaching　it。　They　kicked　the　happy　couple　out　eventually。　Esme　built　them　a　house；　too。　It　was　grander　
than　this　one；　but　then；　Esme　knows　what　Rose　likes；　and　she　knows　what　you　like。〃　

〃So；　after　ten　years；　then？〃　I　was　pretty　sure　that　Rosalie　and　Emmett　had　nothing　on　us；　but　it　might　
sound　cocky　if　I　went　higher　than　a　decade。　〃Everybody　is　normal　again？　Like　they　are　now？〃　

Edward　smiled　again。　〃Well；　I'm　not　sure　what　you　mean　by　normal。　You've　seen　my　family　going　about　
life　in　a　fairly　human　way；　but　you've　been　sleeping　nights。〃　He　winked　at　me。　〃There's　a　tremendous　
amount　of　time　left　over　when　you　don't　have　to　sleep。　It　makes　balancing　your。。。　interests　quite　easy。　
There's　a　reason　why　I'm　the　best　musician　in　the　family；　why—besides　Carlisle—I've　read　the　most　
books；　studied　the　most　sciences；　bee　fluent　

in　the　most　languages。。。。　Emmett　would　have　you　believe　that　I'm　such　a　knowitall　because　of　the　mind　
reading；　but　the　truth　is　that　I've　just　had　a　lot　of　free　time。〃　

We　laughed　together；　and　the　motion　of　our　laughter　did　interesting　things　to　the　way　our　bodies　were　
connected；　effectively　ending　that　conversation。　

25。　FAVOR　

It　was　only　a　little　while　later　that　Edward　reminded　me　of　my　priorities。　

It　took　him　just　one　word。　

〃Renesmee。。。〃　

I　sighed。　She　would　be　awake　soon。　It　must　be　nearly　seven　in　the　morning。　Would　she　be　looking　for　
me？　Abruptly；　something　close　to　panic　had　my　body　freezing　up。　What　would　she　look　like　today？　

Edward　felt　the　total　distraction　of　my　stress。　〃It's　all　right；　love。　Get　dressed；　and　we'll　be　back　to　the　
house　in　two　seconds。〃　

I　probably　looked　like　a　cartoon；　the　way　I　sprung　up；　then　looked　back　at　him—his　diamond　body　
faintly　glinting　in　the　diffuse　light—then　away　to　the　west；　where　Renesmee　waited；　then　back　at　him　
again；　then　back　toward　her；　my　head　whipping　from　side　to　side　a　half　dozen　times　in　a　second。　Edward　
smiled；　but　didn't　laugh；　he　was　a　strong　man。　

〃It's　all　about　balance；　love。　You're　so　good　at　all　of　this；　I　don't　imagine　it　will　take　too　long　to　put　



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everything　in　perspective。〃　

〃And　we　have　all　night；　right？〃　

He　smiled　wider。　〃Do　you　think　I　could　bear　to　let　you　get　dressed　now　if　that　weren't　the　case？〃　

That　would　have　to　be　enough　to　get　me　through　the　daylight　hours。　I　would　balance　this　overwhelming；　
devastating　desire　so　that　I　could　be　a　good—　It　was　hard　to　think　the　word。　Though　Renesmee　was　
very　real　and　vital　in　my　life；　it　was　still　difficult　to　think　of　myself　as　a　mother。　I　supposed　anyone　would　
feel　the　same；　though；　without　nine　months　to　get　used　to　the　idea。　And　with　a　child　that　changed　by　the　
hour。　

The　thought　of　Renesmee's　speeding　life　had　me　stressedout　again　in　an　instant。　I　didn't　even　pause　at　
the　ornately　carved　double　doors　to　catch　my　breath　before　finding　out　what　Alice　had　done。　I　just　burst　
through；　intent　

on　wearing　the　first　things　I　touched。　I　should　have　known　it　wouldn't　be　that　easy。　

〃Which　ones　are　mine？〃　I　hissed。　As　promised；　the　room　was　bigger　than　our　bedroom。　It　might　have　
been　bigger　than　the　rest　of　the　house　put　together；　but　I'd　have　to　pace　it　off　to　be　positive。　I　had　a　brief　
mental　flash　of　Alice　trying　to　persuade　Esme　to　ignore　classic　proportions　and　allow　this　monstrosity。　I　
wondered　how　Alice　had　won　that　one。　

Everything　was　wrapped　in　garment　bags；　pristine　and　white；　row　after　row　after　row。　

〃To　the　best　of　my　knowledge；　everything　but　this　rack　here〃—he　touched　a　bar　that　stretched　along　the　
halfwall　to　the　left　of　the　door—〃is　yours。〃　

〃All　of　this？〃　

He　shrugged。　

〃Alice；〃　we　said　together。　He　said　he